It's been a while!

So... 8 months later and I'm back!

My intention was to stick to writing something at least a few times a week but hey ho, better late than never, right?

I must say though, reading back on what I wrote really put a smile on my face :) My little man is now 7 months old maa shaa Allah and a healthy little bunny.

My labour... Well lets just say it didn't quite go as expected! It's been quite a few months now but my "baby brain" should be gone now and my memory should be back to it's usual shape (not that it's always been in the best of shape but, you know.) I was due to be induced after being 11 days overdue (I know right, 11 days!), my labour was 35 hours long, no pain relief until the last 3 hours when I had a few puffs of gas and air and finally after the long wait my world, my cheeky little monkey, my stunning little man arrived. It was honestly the best day of my life... I would do it 1000 times over.

Wohoo! I can finally say what all the other mothers would say after giving birth haha. Before having Hamza, I never understood why a woman would have no problem what so ever with pushing something bigger than a tennis ball out of her... But now I totally 100% understand.

So a lot has changed since my last blog entry. My little man seems to think he can walk at only 7 months. I'm officially a single mama at the age of 19. I've moved into a snug new home, and I've been tested this year like no other year before.

I've finally come to the realisation that a man will not stay with you forever and infact Allah (God) will. People change, and now I'm a mama I really don't have the time to wait around and see the outcome of these changes. All I want is the best for my son and the best for myself. I no longer bother or care too much about this dunya (world) unless it will benefit me in the akhira.

I didn't realise it would be so difficult being a single mama but Allah doesn't burden a soul with more than it can bear, so when I feel I'm about ready to break Hamza will flash me a little smile. Come on, how can you resist a cheeky smile like his, especially as he has no teeth!

I'd like to get back to writing some more blog entries as I have to admit it feels great to put everything to paper (well to laptop). Whether people read it or not, it's great to look back on and have a little giggle. I'm off to read some other blogs now then hit the sheets with little man. - Yes, I co-sleep and can't get enough of it!

G'night for now <3
May Allah bless me and my little boy with another day <3